Some girls are just born with glitter in their veins



April 2, 2014 Love4JLK

Rage … thats my current. My right now, this very moment feeling. I had Tony take the boys to out of the house because I feel like I want to rip the house apart. I went for a run this morning. Good run with good music playing in my ears. I got home and stopped […]

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April 1, 2014 Love4JLK

This grief. Its so different than I thought it would be. Its so different than any other grief I have ever experienced. One where the color can break through. . . This time it doesn’t. .. I have my doubt that it ever truly will. Tony and I talked about this on our trip. How […]

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5 months

March 31, 2014 Love4JLK

****I mentioned before we had really really spotty service on our trip so I didn’t blog but took notes on my phone what I was thinking/feeling****   Our trip was lovely. Truly a escape and so wonderful to be with just the baby and my husband.. but the dark hit hard coming home. I wish […]

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March 28, 2014 Love4JLK

**service is spotty.. this is from post tonight** The rain returned today. Before we left Tony dropped my car off at a local place to be looked it and then packed up his car.. We were a bit behind on our departure schedule.. but the bonus was I got to go for a run. […]

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March 26, 2014 Love4JLK

We leave tomorrow for our trip…hopefully. Car troubles tonight. Nothing a little duct tape can’t fix though! ..yikes .. . wish everything was that simple. Its almost midnite for us. Just got the kids all into bed.. long night. But lucky to have my sister and nephews watching the 2 little ones and another nephew […]

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March 25, 2014 Love4JLK

 ***Write down the time. Seriously right now look at the clock and write it down. **** This blog is my lifeline. My connection to her. Its been a wonderful way to keep her alive for me. At night I pour over videos (her singing ABCs) and pictures of her. Getting to re-live our lives with her over […]

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March 24, 2014 Love4JLK

  I confuse myself. I was watching a show with the teenager getting teased. I had already worked myself into a frenzy about that happening to Jennifer when she started kindergarten. I was so worried about not being there for her so many hours a day. What I wouldn’t give for that now. To be […]

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March 22, 2014 Love4JLK

Just watched her services for the first time. Just me and her pinkie and nigh nigh. .. . kinda feel like I was in a boxing match. .. .i lost. Badly. I feel a weight on my shoulders.. pushing my down. So heavy. I thought it would start to get lighter? . .. its not. […]

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day after

March 21, 2014 Love4JLK

My thoughts are jumbled.I am so tired.. circling the drain… Milk in the pantry cereal in the fridge kinda day. Yesterday just totally drained and exhausted me. .. .dehydrated me. I could have stayed in bed all day. But I know thats not fair to Tony or the kids. I got up and realized I […]

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only wish

March 20, 2014 Love4JLK

I miss her so much. I can’t even find the words to explain it.   But I need to write. I cant see the screen but I have a compulsion to write.. . this grief …. my right now. its crushing.. .so overwhelming It sucks the air out of the room and out of me. […]

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